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My last post was prate intense it ruffled a few feathers you could say. I meant what I said though. I don't want help unless it if from a special eds teacher. I don't want help from class mates. The reason I already been heart from them. And I never want to go through that agen. It's a trust thing, I guess. I was heart by some ones words and I don't think I can trust like that agen. I never saw what was coming. I'm to scared to ask for help agen. That's why I don't want help is because I was heart. I knew ever one is not like that. The reason I want to be treated the same is cues I just want to fad in to the shadows of life. I'm a afraid that if I'm put in to the the spot light of life just a little that people will see wright through my mask that mask I have worked to make. I guess my life is like the simple plane song welcome to my life. Cues for me it feels like it is faller after faller. But I have learned to pick my self up and brush the dust of my should because you have to keep going and not live in that moment. That's how I see it that's why my words are so intense I've built a wall to take some of the impact of what people say or what I fell. I don't like to show when I'm heart I don't tell any one I work through it my self. I'm not a role modal at all relly I would hate if some one looked up to me cues if they could get in to my head they would no ,longer want to look up to me. I don't want pity or sypothe cues they don't help me they just well I don't knew. But I don't want to be looked down on ether. I just wanted to day that so you would knew why I said what I said that's all.