Friday, January 11, 2008

Never had a chance

I've been thinking alot latly aoubt my dyslexia and i guess i've know it all alone but i finly get it. I neer got achance, i never had a chance being normal. THe first breath i ever took i was dyslexice the lest breath ill atke is stil be dyslexic. Im ogignto use a relay easy picuter to hsow you whatit;s liek in my head aoubt iths. Some one who is born blind always wil lwoudner what it;s lieto see. Some one who lost ther sight knows waht its liekto see and wil wish for that bkac. Me Im that born blind. I nwat toknwo so bad how muhc diffnret it woudlb eif i wanst dysleix. WOuld get better grades? Would i play mroe sports? WOudl be a better guitarist? I;ve never tastewd that slat, but i wnat to knw so bad what it tase like, but ill never get a chance. This is my life it has been given to me and i cnat do anytihng aoubt it i dnat tkae medice for it i cant have a sergery for it. I tihn ksoemtes God mite give us thos realy hard things when were litle couse it's wrods when you knwo youknwo waht it;s lie eot see and you wnat it bakc. God made it tihs way so when i was litlte it was there so i wil never be able to say why cnat it go bakc that way cosue theres no ware for it to go bkac to.

One day ill be able to stnad infonrt of a corud adn give my testimony. M favrtie part of that testimont iwl bwe saiyg im dyslexic and the world says hay you're lower then me you;re way down there, but God Goda says wo wo wo no way mani love her jsut the saem. If soem one says to you for the first timei lvoe when you are you;re worst oyu know they iwll always love oyu. God lvoes me evne tohugh the world says ahy you arnet the top dog hay oyu cnat be. But God say ley me use you adn you'll see the worl cnat dinfe you that oen litle words dyslexia dcant difne you. I am And im using you so you ahve perpos and you;re important csouei made you that way.

I wont let a word dife me ther is only one person who cna. He is the God who loves me He is the God who gave mye life. He is hte God who made me adn said ahy i maid you work liek that now let yme use that. I'm like omses but but buttt Gooood I sttttuder" "Yeah wel lguess what Mosses i made that stuter i made that, I got it"-God

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Jokes

I ahve some jokes for you i tohught i would get funny you knwo it's fun sometimse.
So gues waht i walked by some one and thay spelled someihtng wright
that was funy wright
oh i got a grate one
ok i was lisinsg to a girl read and said it all wright
man i knwo yo;ter aobut dyeing with laghtrer
arrent thos funny?

Well if you have any sanity at all you wernt jsut laghing. Wich bring me to qusiotn if thos arnt funny thne why are dyslexia jokes? why is it so funynw ehn soe one is stgil with reading in class. Whyis it so funy when soem one says oemthing back words. Why is it halerous weh nsomeone does soemtihng wrong that is so simpl? Becosue they ahve dyslexia. Becouse you ahvent ben there ad you need a lagh in the day. Becoues dyslexia is funy. Well i woudl like to make an anounce ment it's not funy to a dyslexic. Ever tie i mess up i am easil remind of the pople who lagh at me and dont enve know aoubt my dyslexia. Waht woudl ahppend if they did.

I sat down for a Bible calss a couple Mondays ago. IT was atlest 15 mienst into the class. We ahd the 12 that day so we were in circal. Im geting distracted and i see a cow on the board im liek dude thats sweet cow. So i look at rthe little word buble and it's OOM im liek waait cows say moo not oom. And i look and wright next to that says dyslexic cow ha ha ha and then the students name who drew it. The name didnt suprize me to me she was just a nothe slandering peron. Of coure i len wisper to my fined who knows im dyslexic and say look at the bord. Most fo you mitght think my fried would laugh. She was not amused she turned bakc to me and gave me one of thos lokos like dont kill thme it woudnt be good.

I go to a privet school. Yet once a week i here some one make fun of specil ed, dyslexis, autisum, ADD, you name it i've herd a joke aobut it. I could name joke after joke. I rember ever single joke. Adn i've ditermned iths our jokes get meaner as we get older. When we were 4 yeraolds we mad jokes abut mud. Now that were older we make jokes aoubt bpole, Discrimanting jokes. WE lable pole and jokea obut thme becosue there under us. Beocue there banther us. I am no lower then my normal friend. Im not dumber, im not anytinhg less then thme. I am equil to thme. If you tihn kyou can tell em im banthe you cosue i have dyslexia. Perosnaly ii woudl give you to pieces of adviece one get soem help and two clear you're scedul for the next day cosue you can bet you will lyeing in hospital bed goind i need some hlep.

I am jsut like my frineds i jsut ahve a word that gits put on school aplicaiotns. I hjust have a word that tells poel i wont gt tihngs wright away. I am dysleix but guyss what i am not going to take junk for you beouce of it. If you try to bring me down for it i wil nock you down nad make sure you knwo waht it fells liek to be nocked down. I am jsut like you i tkawe test lika all my finreds my work is graded liekmthere s i curintly have no exeptions for stuff so gues what im liekyou. YOu amke fun of me you might ass well make fun of you;re self cosueim jsut lieky you.

Friday, November 23, 2007

THe qusiotn and the answer

What strategies help the most with reading, writing and spelling? What have teachers done in the past that have helped? what have teachers done in the past that have hurt?

They say ever question has an answer. I guess that means thes qusiotn have an answer. And i guess that is ware im sopos to be goign with all of tihs, but no im jsut jokeing there is no but ill answer the question. So here you go.

The funny thing about this qustion is that it's difacult for me or answer. I'm sure you;re thinking but hay this is jsut you telling us waht helps and dosnt. It not the dosnt part that hard to figure out is the what does. I think im jsut be getting some very liek say waht say waht go on wrigh tnow so let me explane. When I was Dignossed in 3rd grade i want to a small small small Cheisten school. THere was no specil ed teacher nothin. So the teachers idd what ever. As a resalt igot crazey theres. One teacher ahd me tkae my test by my self so i oculd sound it out as iwnt alon. Didnt hlep. $th grade teacher relay didt do anything speicl and my 5th and soem of 6th grade teacher had me jsut mach her words igot A's but i wasnt learning to spell. In 6th grade i moved and went to a still small but bigger Privet school. But ther is a LEarning assicents person. Inn 6th grade all i did was go down ther and tkae my seplling tests. 7th grade year my list was tkaen fomr the normal 20 to 12 wich heped me alot to be abe to have few words. THis year im pritty much not in ther learning assictent program at all. It;s almsot mid year and i havent bene down there once nor do i even knwo who the new learning assictent perons is. This is so not to say my teachers ahvent tried to help. My Bible teacher this year Actul agve me adiffrent Bible test. I politly asked ihm after i had gotten the test back to alow me to tkae a normal test like my classes meats beocuesi felt as if the test did not give my full nolig of the holle coures. SO in the end this year i have bben geting no help andi dont relay se ewaht hs helped in the past with spelling nothing has ever semed to click.

Reading and wrighting happen to go under the same catigory for me. Such it up and do it. Yep i said it. Why i say it? It's simiple it;s how it is. I have to read at the smae rate as my calsee amte si have no exeptions for that. I am reading the smae books as my clases mattes. And at the same passe. WE are curintly readign the Hobbi i am expected to read the same amount of pages in the same amount of time. Adn turn the assingment in on time. I dont think any of my teachers have reconignissed i have problums iwth it cosue i;ve always jsut done it. Although meany of the books i;ve ahd to read for school have ben thourng acroos a room from frustrastion. I ithnk that becosuei have never aloud my teachers to give me a reson to have it any diffrent with reading. To me it;s alwyas been i have to read this stupid book do it now or get a 0 so it;s always been jsut suck it up and do it. Wrighting is aoubt the same. My hand wirghting is increisbley poor and it tkaes a larg amount of evvert to make my hadn writign enve legible. EWven at the tie it jstu looks liek some 3rd grader did it. SO for that i have been asked to type up asingments that we dont do in class. For em wrting on the computer or viceiong my oopyen is never heard. I oculd wright meany novals with the intersting thoguhts I ahve writen down.

Harm is easy for teachers who dontknw waht threre doing to do. AS im enached i had maching liek half the word with the other half when iwas younger and it didnt help me to learn. I thin kthe worst thing teacher cna do is single me out. As a dyslexic i dont wnat to be labbeld that to al lmy frined besdei one, I am a normal teenager who jsut has horrid spelling and hand wrighting. I havent told thme that i have dyslexia. THe thing is i likeit that way. And i have it when teachers single me out. One thing i ahte is when teachers look at the wrord dyslexia nad staro type me saying she ahs this this this nad this problum. At the begggin of the school eyare al my teachers thoghu i had trouble wrighting. I think all of thme have grown to learnand gornw to hate how much i cna write. Soemthing that ahs alos been harmful si when teacher belittle me beocue of my dyslecei. I have a breain it jstu dsontliek to work wright sometiems soem wired didnt conect wright and I ahpend to get the dyselxia geen to not hid in me but be a dominet geen and show up. So It's not that im dumb or stupid it;s that i jstu dont do things as quick as you or me wourld like.

So that my asnwer to that qusiot wuit allanghthey one i guess. I never siad it woudnt be. Oh adn much thnks To Christy for sending me the quisont. I hope who ever reads this injoyed

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

ok so i havent ask in a long itme so i tohught i waould. I knwo dylsexia is ahrd thing to undersnt and ther are alot fo quiostn poel wh ar looking in fomr out of the dyslice worl have so iwould liek to gevie any one who hsa a qusiot aoubt to ask. I actul want to naswer ou;re wusiotns o it would be cool if you asked them. nad dont be scared to ask anything form liek whats the ahrdest thing al the way to waht couses it adn i will in my best ability try to answer any quisotns oask awya.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Not goign to use it as a cruch

Dyslexia why doe sit ahve to be such stupid sentive arie?
Why evertime it domcoems upa toughsend sirions goof ian ym ehad and i get defensiv? Cani jnot sjtub e calm ao ub tit? Can't i jsut chilen and be normal? Why doe sit ahv to beliekt his?

I guess with me mabey thie thing i hate so mcu haobut dyslexia is when oyu tlel some one ther a re some diffnret ways they cna reson ond adni dot thme i jsut dont. Iwant to be a nomrla kicked im not crible i dont need helo im fine. So stop mkaeing exseptions stop be litlteing me and stat seeing me as who i am a Chrsitne teen. THats all. Dont ever sa y im a dyslexic tee cosue you;le find you;re slef on the ground quick thne oy ever tough posible. It s sometihng that iwll be little me it;s not someithn im goignt ouse as a cruch say pore me. I'm ifne i got it i dont need you;re hlep. Ill aks if i need it but if idont ask dont even try. I've got pride and it;s big and it donst wnat oyu;re help. Yehaill strugl and i look ing at it funn ge tm kicck osmeithng come bkac in aocuilble minets and try agne, but dont act liek im fine comse im dyslexic im 14 i cna od it trust me. I odnt car eif i look lieka fool in the prioses i odt arfe if oyu tihnk im weard for trying it this way. I dont car ocus im doingit on my own. Yeha im dyslexic but im not criple. Yeha im dyslexic but i can do it. I'll learn with learning comes failer giv eme time ill do it. Yerah im pride full and idont wnat you to to bruse my pride ill aks for hlep when i need it but not a minet befor. So dont try im me im pride ful im teen im a Christen. THat al lyou ned to knwo who cared about dyslexia im not let it stop me.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

My former teacher and FRends JEniffer black taged me although i ncat spell er her name i understnd the game so here it goes

First, these are the rules:
1. Each player starts with eight random facts or habits about him or herself.
2. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
3. At the beginning of your blog, mention the person who tagged you. At the end of your post, choose eight people to tag, listing their names
.4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

rendome ithngs hum
1 i alwyas were a baseball cap
2 i hate make up and anything girley
3 i wakebaord snowbard have surfed and sakte board im a board spot person
4 i play the acustice gutere realy bad though
5 when i was in elimentry school i did BMX
6 I play soccer it;s wiked fun i paly goaly
7 Wheni m oldunuf to drive i want a Ford F-350 super dute king size cap 8 foot bed
8 i alwyas have to be doind more thne one thing so when i sit in class i tap or ifim tlkaing to some one on im im lising to musice checking my sohutlife and wrightign a story.

ok i knwo like 3 pople on here couse my blog ant intersting so her you go Uh AKte AShly and Christey

Sunday, June 17, 2007

My enimey

I step in to a boxing ring now this will be the figt of my life. As i turn to the opit corn er tosee who iwil lface it turnes out to be me.

If i ithnik aoubt it my bigest enimy is me. And one part of me i have fought with is dyslxia. Some pople would think it's not big deal and it only last wall your in school. Well guesss what there dead werong. Dyslexia is something that dosn't jsut strugel thoguh in school it afects alot fo your life. It donst jsut go awya so if you ahve it when your 5 menas youll have it when your 55. In other words no medicen, no cure, no notihng.

You know how poeple concer Dyslexia? They so it with ditermintation, hard work, houres of studie, reserch, and lot ansad lots of time. Being dyslexiac isnt for the weak. If you cant stand hard work nad have dyslexia then it will esly over welm you. Being dyslexiac isn't for the lazziy couse yoll never learn anytihng. Being dylsexiac sint for thos who wont fight, vcsue your fighting youre self ever day. Dyslexia isnt for thos who tihnk life is fair, ocuse your fail test you studied hours for. Dyslexia isnt for thos who tihnk there perfect you'll quickly lern you aren't. Dyslexiac isnt fro thos wo wont straght A's cosue it;s almost imposible. dyslexia isnt for thos who aren't willing to try, couse you ahve tyo try hard. Dyslexia sint for thos who can't take faler, couse youll fail lots.

If your Dyslexic you cant cry ever time you odnt get an A on atest, ocsue youll cry ever night. If' oyu dylsexic you cnat not studie for a test adn expect to pass. If your Dlexic you cant studie for 5 minets and expect to pass the test. If your dyslexiac you cnat expect to get A's ever test. If you sdyslexiac you know life is hard. If your dyslexiac you knwo your diffrent If your dyslexiac you know what failer menas. If you dyslexiac you knwo what it's liek to have dreams crushed. If you dyslexic you know what it menat to studie for ever and stil lbe wored aboubt failing. If youre dslexic you knwo what confusing is. If your cyslexic you knwo what it;s kike when english looks like chines. If your dyslexiac then you know what stupid fells like. If your dyslexic you know what it;s like to hid tihngs.

If your Dyslexic you cna sicsed. If your dyslexic you cna mke a diffrenx. If your dyslexic youre not dumb. Ifyour dyslexic you not lazzie. If youre dyslexic you cna change some ones life. If your dyslexiac your smart. If your dyslexic you cool. If your dyslexic for get aoubt stary tips and start liven for the Lord who loves you how you are.

The worst tihng for some with dyslexia is to get a teacer who dosnt get it. THey think your lazzie, dumb stupied, or hoples. If your a teacher with a dylsexic studdent thay arent yther trying the best. If your ateacher with a dyslexiac studdent when they ask the same qusiton 3 times ther mopst likely not trying to be funny there tring to understnd. If you a teacher with a dyslexic studdent you ahve to understnd they lern in a diffrent wea thern your other students. If your a teacer with a dyslexic studdent you ahve to understnad when the dail a test it mostlikely and cosue they didnt studie it's cosue they didnt studdy the wright way. If your a teahcer with a dyslexic student you have to rember that to them if you give up on them it means they sohuld give up on there slef. YOu ahve an impact you cna change ther life for good or bad.

If your a parent with a dyslexic you cna make or brakck your kid. If youre a parent with a dyslexic child dont yelll at them when they dont gtet straght A's., ocuse there trying there best. If your a parent with adyslexic child odnt ever tell htm there stupid, couse ther enot. If your a partetn with a dyslexic child when the fbomb a test dont get mad ask thme why adn figure out how you can help. If your a parent with a dylsexic child make sure you tell thme your proud of them.

Sometink dyslexia is easy/ Others tihnk it;s unbarible. It sure inst easy but you cna concer it. Some days dyslexia fells liek it will consum to you. It shoudnt b taken littly. But for pitty sake dont bring it up ever time someitnhg goes wrong. If you have no tech a dyslexic ther a nomrmal kid ther goign to mess up but it;s not alwys couse oof dyslexia. And rember there a normal kid you cnat let dtyslexia deffin thm or you . You jsutcant. Couse if you do your life will get seriosly messecdd up.

Dyslexia is jsut that dyslexia im not goignt o be deiffinfd by dyslexia cosue that would be stuppiud. It wil lalwyas be there nad alwyas a part of me but im leting God diffin me not dyslexia. It's a pece of me so jsut forget and dont say im that dyslexic kid cosue im not. Im me the wakeboarding snowbaording gutar playing chileds perosn who hpapens to have disylsexia i never wnat to her my nad mand dyslexic together ever. IF you ahve dyslexia dont let it difin you