Diffensive

This weekend I went on a retret with my Chruch and lernd something, welll i lernd alot but ilernd somtthing about me adn dyslexia. My friend pionted out to me this weekend that I get defensful or have a strong opinyen when it comes to dyslexia. Alow me to explane.

Were are sisteing at a table talking me and kids form my Church and ten some kids from another Church. So Maria ,a girl from the other church, is saying how she dosent like realy smart poeple like Enstine and stuff. So i meanched well Enstine mad a learning discibilet. Nath from my church shimes in and says, he had dyslexia. Maria then asked waht is dyslexia. Ceep in mind she is from Rusai and has likve here only 6 years. So instinctively istart saying stuff andf ofcoures stunbling over woreds so on of my frineds sayis it's a read dsability and another says epople with it have slow minds thay dont learn as quick. This is were me geting defensfuley comes in. I looked at one and said it dosnet have to only do with reading it goes into so mean more espects of life. I looked at the other adn we kinda got in to like this 30 second dabet like he siad dysleics learn slower adn i said thay lern i n adiffrent way.

Mind you this was kinda riskey only couse onelty one person tyher knows iahve dyslexia, but like it's werd couse thay never mencen it to me. Wich is wat saprised me is cosue we were tlak and i was like it is heard for some people to be my friend. I have strong opinyens about somethings, nad thay said like dyslexia. That throught me off yeah.

For me ihave strong oppinyens when peole dont know what thay are tlaking about. PEople who dont ahve dyslexia realy dont understadn it. YOu cn have a degra in it but you still dont fully understadn it. People who dont ahve dyslexia wright bookes aobut how a dyselxiac child fells. I always tihnk how in the world would you know. Why if you have a dagrey do you think you understnad dyselxia. Why do poeple who know little are like oh yeah i know all abuotit. It jsut messes me up when people say it JUST a readeing dasibilitey, ther poeple atre SLOW. COsue it's not jsut a reading disabilety and i am not slow.

Leting Go

Verse 1
I walk through life seeing there faces
I see the pain in there eyes
I see how life is so messed up to them
And how they just want to want it to end

Chorus
But hold on tight
Theirs something more to this life
Yeah I know the oain nad how bad it hearts
But hold on tight

Verse 2
One day she takes of the mask in front of me
Gives me a glimpse of the pain she’s going through
I know she wasn’t to give up
I know she wants to let go and let it all end

Verse 3
She’s tired of this life
She wants to let go but something always saves her
The grades upset her
And the things people say they heart her

Verse 4
Girl wants to give up
Takes her mask of in front of a friend
Shows here the pain that she goes through
Her friend says I still love you.
Grapes her by the shoulders and says I’m going to pray for you

Last line
God’s got a plane for her
Even dreams but it don’t seem that way to her
Yeah she’s read to let go
Just ready to let go

The songs called Leting Go. How mean times have you been there? I know i have been there alot and truthful I one ether talkto my friends aobut it or 2 i jsut go to bed and hope the stuff dont fallow in to the next day. But I was tihnk in the last vvers how asum would it be to be that friend the one who prays for you and you trust with take your mask of infront of. I asume would it be to be the friend people can trust. Why not be that friend why not? I guess this has been on my mind and these words have been in my head. I mean i knwo what is like to want to jsut let go and run form your life. I know what it is like boleve me i realy do. It stinks on ice like nothing els. But woudent it be grate to have a friend that siad hay I'll pray for you i got a some friends like that. THere the ones iam ver thankful for them. So i have a qusiton in the last vers why not try to be that friend i shere am going to try to.

When there's nowhere else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one Understands where you are
Someone loves you even when you don't think so don't you know you gotMe and Jesus by your side through the fight you will never be alone on your own you got me and Jesus
After all that we've been through
Be now you know i've doubted too
But everytime my head was in my
Hands you siad to me
Hold on to what we got
This is worth any cost so Make the most of life
That's borrowed Love like thers no tommarow.

I love tihs song and a grate reminder to me. I havent head the easest life in the world, but iknow it hasent been that bad. Just this weeke has been hard. To me some times seems like my friends arent there when i realy need them. THen ithink waht if thay walk out on me and say im sorry your jut to much for me to handle. I cant take it any more. I tihnk what ift hay step back ver the line. THe take one step back and say im sorry i cant any more. Buth then i here Jesus and it reminds me I's like ahy i love you and im friend you can always talk to i ant ever gana leve im leve you. Im not sorry i know sayin is inportent but ihave to go. I cna pour out my heart to mhim and he will lesen the holle time. He's also blessed me he's geven me grate frieds that love me for me and care about me.I am so thankful for thes people and you know who i am talking about. I want to thank you for beging the me in the song even when I dont think so you are. And thank you alot. THis jsut need be said i guees

Just Dyslexia

Ha i was thinkg like 2 minuets ago and i was talking to a friend and I always have randomethings ruining through my head and i thought JUST dyslexia. those are to veer dangers words when you put them together. I say i JUST have dyslexia, but when you think about it is it a JUST? Is it JUST misking up letters. JUST having troupe reading. JUST having trouble in math. Or is it so much more.

People take dyslexia and belittle it. Thay say it is JUST. Thay think t isn't that pig of a deal. Thay think stick i kid with dyslexia in a class room they'll be fine. Don't wore it's JUST dyslexia. I mean people don't talk about it much and there isn't any medication it is no big deal people live with it everyday. I mean famous actors and actresses live with it why is it such a big deal?

Oh yeah those people are so wright. You knew it isn't like it's annoying to stumble over easy words. It's not like i have ever thought about quiting school. It's not like I Have ever JUST wanted to give up. It's JUST troupe with school. It's JUST knowing you cant preform easy tasks. it's JUST have tons of problems in school. it's JUST dyslexia.

Why does the world want me to think it's JUST when I study hard and get bad grades. Why does the word think of JUST dyslexia? Why do thay think i can JUST deal? maby thay JUST don't get it.

It's JUST Dyslexia.

My back round

I jsut relised i have gone through 56 post with out welling you about my backround. SO i guess i will tell you about it.

Ok so scens as long as i have been in school i have never been good at it. In kindergarden i can rember stayting after with the teacher to do work. At this peiont i didn't knew i had dyslexia. Nether did my parents or teachers. IN the summer betwen Kindergarden and 1st grade i had a tuter for reading. In 1st grade by the end of the year i was asked to be held back. FOr dailing more thwen one coures All of iths was made wores by me going to a privet school wich was very smalll and had no specil Ed help. Wich meas no one even saspectide i had Dyslexai. The hact was made evne wors buy how my school was in to lituter adn we had to read 4 books a year. THat may not seem like alot byt to a Kid with dlsexia it is a ton of frustration and alot of reading. Oh and sens my school loved reading so much thay didn think that was unufe books for us to reafd so we had to doo a reading thing. WE would have books on a list to read and depending on the leght of the book it would be woth serton pionts. Have dyslexai classicle knew as rading disorde made all oh f this so mcu heasry...........I wish. I t mead it all harder. I cna sitll rember countles times of read geting word id dn't knew siting there for fowever long. And finly spelling the word to my mom, and haveing havein my LITTLE sister easly figure out what the word is. I can rember get frustrated adn not being abley to walk away from the book cosue i kneew due the next day. None of that gelped at all. It hasn't help with be a Christan becosue of cosrs the Bible Has huge woreds. So back ontraeack.

Notihng got better my multiblecatin tables istill mess up. I leanr d that in 2nd grade. In second grade at lesti wasn't held back. In 3rd grade over Christmas break i was tested for dyslexia and my parents told me i had it. It was a relf but then gean it wans't. Agen small privet school that loves liture and teacher who some didn't have a teacheing dagre let alone a specil ed adujucation. Mean diffrent things were tried. And still failer fouund me bad grade and a D in spelling for 4th grade were anying OH and one tihng i hated so much was the shart on the wall you knew the ones that siald how well you were doing. Yeah i was never doing bettrer then anyo one els. ijsut hated those becosue thay always made me fell stupid.

In 5th grade it was better my teacher new better ways to help me with spelling and i sometimes even got A's but it still was frustrating becsoue i knew that i coudn't take test like ever one els and get the grade i want. She gave me a spelling test in wich i wouldl mach half the word with the other half. It was halenging at times especil sense it was out prtest dan she did not want us to studie for it. But i realinjopyd that techer and was luckunfe to have her For half 6th grade.

I moveied midew year adn wnet to a school were thay went so shere about it but did have a specil helps romm. Were the teachr was willing to lern I take only 12 woreds insted of the
normal 20.

Ever sense i was dignosed with Dyslexia ever one has jsut cept it as a problum with spelling but it can be so mch more and is. I mix up number s cant rember multiplication ables and have problums with math and reading. I take normal test with normal students. But the test i cant the smae way. Like i can read the qustion and no the ansere but some times i jsut dont understadn the qustion. THis school year hasn't been the best becouse i am geting fed up with help, and becosueof my math teacher. When ever i ask a qustion she makes me fell dumb. Im not shere if she looks down on me becosue of dyslexia. But she just anys me

So that is my back round jsut thoufght you all should knew

Lables

You know one thing i hate about dyslexia is the word dyslexia. I bet some of you are just like what in the world. Just cep Reading and let me explain.

Ok just roll with me for a second. I have a friend who's cousin has ADD. Which means for those of you who don't knew she has trouble with paying attention. Not just like a little allot. That is just the quick definition. So back to the story. So ever time my friend talk about her cousin she goes my cousin the one with ADD. And it bugs me to death because she replaces her cousin name with a disability.

I haven't told her i have dyslexia and that is one of the things that is relay stooping me. I never want to be you knew my friend with dyslexia. Yes dyslexia is a part of me . But it doesn't define me it is not my name it is not who i fully am. Of cours it is a part of my but is not ME. Yeah i think about it allot and yeah it can be noticeable but i don't ever want to be you knew as my friend with dyslexia did the funnest thing today.

There is a reason for me not liking to have dyslexia diffing me. It's because when that word is put with me sisited automatically looks down on me and says"Oh well you are not striving for the same things as us" "Thall be happy if thay get all C's or thay don't mind if thay nave this job." Society excepts me to go in to a cure that requires no weighting and little thinking. Thay think i will be ok with strata C's and not think i want the same as ever one els. I want strata A's. But i am use to not getting what i want This is what i say school is served to some people on a gold platter. Which means thay are naturally smart. For me it is on a rusted out corroded platter that no one wants. Wouldn't it just tick sisided of if I decided i would take that and make it a butful one. Say I'm not smart in school but different things. Suicide doesn't see me thay see dyslexia.

THay think i will setl well i wont. I'll work for that goal and prove to them Dyslexia cant define me. So dyslexia want be me just Peace of me.

Comment modiration, MAkeing fun of

Comant modiration. I'm sorry to all of you who use it but i hate it. Another thing dyslexia afects. Cosue ofcours i mix up leters and ther igo agen it took me lik 4 times jsut to be able to fine get it wright. I mena jsut another tihng with dyslexia.

With dyslexia i swich leters around like b and p adn stuff or when typing i knew what i am going to say it's jsut i swich leters to diffrent spots in the word. Hay thats not fun. A couple of times people have goten on me about spelling things wrong and one time so one was like "i'm going to coreect you ever time you spell some things wrong" Adn i jsut siald " doon't it wount help." Of ocures the person didn't get it but i did. I have to have things fix maltple times over 10 times. Like onley 2 of my friends gets this and so as lng as thay can read it thay dont care but othere poeple don't. They 1 dont knew i have dyslexia and 2 i spell easey woreds rong like i use to knew how to spell the wored here as in like hereing and stuff but i cinda forgot. People jsut dont understadn that it isn't my chouce alot of the stuff. Like spelling i try my best but for some poeple it isn't good unufe. It's not my choace to have troouple in math and bad hnd wrighting. But it is me. I've learnd that it take sme foever to lern some things and i knew what it is like to fail. That is me and who God made me. For a resomn and perpose.

To me it isn't faitr to be made fun of things you dont control but the onley person i wont stadn up for is my self. Wichi s stupid but you cna mess with me all you want but the second you start to mess with my freidns you might as well jump of a bridge. I wont ever punch any one jsut becose thay make fun of mye but when oyu make fun o my friends you crossed the line. I wont ever hert some one for something thay did to me but i wont garenty i wont if you do something to my friends. Especiley if you make fun of them for some thing thay dont have control over.

I dont think it is fair at all for people with mentle disabliteys to be made fun of for that mental disabilitey. I donthave a chose thay dont have a chose so why even go there. It is like you being weak to go there. So why even do it im shere thay no there wekenses cosue i knew i knew mine but thay dont ned you to piont them out. It is jsut wrong.

Hum well yeah this is a realy all over haven no piont post intersting. Yeah not being able to focuse not un . So yeah jsut rember you are not onley makeing fun of that person but God to couse God made them in his image. For me Dyslexia and all. Hard unf to boleve it is true

A new year

One more year I can mark of the list
One year wiser
One year smarter
One year closer to going to calag
One year closer to moveieng out
One year closer to starting a fameil
ONe year closer to owne a busnis
One or more lesions lernd
One or more lesons taght
One or more people who have touched my life
One or more poeple whos lives i have touched
One more year of fun
One more year of friendships growing
One more year of blessings
One more year of paing
One more yer of hearships
One more year of friends ships ending
One more year of smart things done
One more year of dumb things done
One more year filled with the truth
One more year filled with lies
One more year to hate
One more year to love
One more year to grow closer to God
One more year down and how ever mean God choose to give me to go

A new year and a grate time to look back and see how life has gona adn what has hapend. And learning onec agen that life will go on. One more year means so mean things. And i hope God will please this year for you and your familes. Life can be hard and a new year can be scare a nother chance to mess up. But you alow have to rember it is another year to learn to do something wright. So take this year slow stop and smeal the roses look bac k next year and say this was a grate year. So what do you say? don't worey so much jsut relaces and let the year be. Let God show you what he wants to. And let everthing play out couse it alll has a reson. God has a plane for it. Make it your new years resilutions ome thing worth will like spending more time with God. Or mabey doing more things for Him. Or jsut lisen to him more. What do you say?

Do you ever fell like the cards are delt agenst you like you jsut got a wiked bad hand in uno. Or mabey you fell like you got the stort end of thes stike, or mabey nothing is going oyur way and it realy jsut stink on ice. I knew how that fell. School for me is frustrating. Alot of the time i have to have things repeted or i dont understand what people are saying.I get confused easly. I got this threa no matter who you are no matter where you live, no matter waht you are going to have strugles in your life. Poeple i have diffrnet stuggels mente,l fiscical, amoutinal, fameiley. So no matter what you msut have a sturgle. some thing you hate you wish you didn't want to have in you life. Hay i do i ant gana diny it i do. And i bet when i saidl i struglew you thought of one right.

well i have lernd a few things. One is that there is a reson for ever thing. I moved from one sdtat to anothere. I thought it was the end of the world it turns out one of the best things happend to me.that called Gods will for my life. Two God has a plane for your life no matter what you think. I can qustion that alot becouse of me haveing dyslaxia. And three good theings and bad things will come you way but ther is a plane for it.

But i always knew that that threa cna seem realy wrrong. Becouse to me i knew hwat it is like you fell like you are livening in a worled were everthing is perfect. Man do i knew that. Me and a friend agre on this and to us it seems like ever one else has a perfect life no matter what. And bolece me it stinks somewtimes wehn you think how you have tobe reminded ever single day about your problum and it fells like no one else has one. I guess i have a word of advise people mmsot likely have strugles in there life if not knew latter, but no one has a picture perfect olife i knew it seems like it but thay dont. but any way that is my two scens today.

Today some thing was said to me that really heart me.Their are serton things that do heart me and some one said some thing to me i will not say who or what. But i was heart. And rely didn't feal like talking to them at all.

I felt when this was said to me that they looked down on me because of a factor, it made me think what you don't think i am on the same playing field as you. I strive for the same grades as ever one els we are on a level playing field i was so mad at this person for what they sail they how no wright to say it.

I got mad because i was like what do you think we are not on the same playing field what am i sopos to go play with little kids wall you stay here. I am not going to say i am grate at stuff but i do knew when it comes to school i am on the same field as ever one else i play the same game i get help only in spell even thought i struggle in other areas. I made me mad. I don't think people take dyslexia as serious as it is. Only because there is no medication for it. But that is what makes it even worse because there is no cure or even help. I work twice as hard for half the grade. That is what it is like i can study for 4 hours then get a C and the person next to me can studio for 30 minuets and get an A. It really stinks on ice. It is some thing that I really struggle with because i am like why do i try. To me some times it just seems like it doesn't matter how hard i work it all just crashes down. But that's my life.

Jokes

I will answerer your request i don't think it will be grate but here you go

OK how mean times a day do you here a joke? Well i mean i like jokes and i make them all the time. You could ask my friends. Weather there good or no who knows. When i make jokes the only time i ever bring other people in to my jokes is when I go Johnny is think man i wish ___ would stop taking man maybe i can get them to stop if i just act like I'm not paying attention. Man it didn't work. I make jokes like that pritey much i make fun of my self. But I'm going to ask you a question how mean times have you listened to a joke about some one with ADD ADHD or have an LD. i bet your thinking Ha ha man my friend just made a joke about that a couple days ago. You knew what i don't fined them funny. I take them offensively. When people make dyslexic jokes there making fun of me with out knowing it. Most people don't knew i have dyslexia. I don't want them to. But some times i just fell like telling them to show them how normally people with dyslexia are. I mean last time i checked people over exaggerate dyslexia in jokes and ADD and ADHD. Have you herd that joke how mean ADHD kids does it take to skew in a little bauble? Hay look a squeal. I herd that one time and thought it was funny but then i thought about the meaning. The next time some one said it to me i saild. One. All I'm saying is next time you make jokes like that think about who you are making fun of and what if that was you.

Ok if you haven't noticed i like picters to ilistrat what i am tring to say. So here is anothher one

ok I like rideing my bike you knew your bedling alone and you see a hill comeing up so you our like alright im going to get redey for the hill. Knew pictur this theres a coner you turn the corner and right there is a hill. YOu realy dont have time to priper for it.

There are kids i knew who dont intental but do cinda make fum of me for seten things. And then there are a hewe poeple i would never expect that from. But sometihng happend and i knew the person didn't mean to hert my fellings but thay did. And it was one of thos people i didn't expect it from. So it hert. But all im saying is be carful with your words thay are more harmful then a sword. And thay can scar people for life. Or tare them to pices. I knew it is hard but some times you just got to let the words roll of your shoulder and forget about it. It's hard i knew i have to do it to and man alive is it hard sometimes i knew but you jsut have to try. And rember now matter if you got no friends some friends or bad friends there will alwas be a friend whi isn't ever gona let you down. Jesus.

Life through a darkened window

Some people say dyslexia is a gift. They say that because people with dyexia some times have little talents like art music wrighting stuff like that I don't knew of any I have but this I s not my point. I don't understand why people say it's a gift. To me it's more like a curs. With dyslexia it is like looking through a widow with a ton off dust or one with those intercity disins. No matter what you do you can not the world fully. That is what it is like. I see the world a lot differently the other people. When I look at a math problems I figure out the answer in a totally different way then you do. Not because that is how I was taught but because that is how my brain works. I can type kind fats if I look at the key board but if I don't I don't to that grate at all. My brain works alot different then yours does. It's like a video game two people wont play the exact same way no matter what they do. That's cinda what it is like. To process languish my brain uses on the left side. But some one without dyslexia us the front right and left part of there brain. Which is more effective. So I will never see the world the same as you but I don't mind then I will express stuff deferent from you and I might have a couple cool experience that is I didn't have dyslexia I would never have. I guess I don't mind heaving dyslexai. I wont call it a gift. It is more like a nuisance

Ok sorry I affront written in a will you knew I've been heaving some ADD lately not relay but. Yeah well that brings me to my first point. Today. Ok like I make fun of my self all the time and about dyslexia I think that is ok but I don't think it is ok for a "Normal" person to make fun of some one with a learing disability and I don't think it would be ok for me to make fun of some one else who has a learn disability. It is just some thing I don't think is I right.

point 2. School to me isn't that cool. I just don't like school one because I don't do good in large groups and two because I'm bad at school. I don't get good grades because I just don't. The only thing good about school is 1 my friends. If it wasn't for one of my friends I don't knew how I would survive school and life. 2 couch of gym I like to run and jump and all that fun stuff and I don't have to wright in that class. The only problem is some times following directions. So yeah.

point 3. I have no idea how I could go through life with an LD with out God. I mean it would just be horrible. I mean knew that there is a resin I have an Ld and some day I hope I will learn that reason but for knew I ma just holding on to that reassuring.

So yeah that is all for knew and sorry I haven't updated on for ever but I will more I think. So yeah.

You knew there are something in life that realy efect you. I want to shere one with you in hope this never happens to any one else. So of you might find this disterbing. But it is strong and i hope it gets my piont acros.

Seens I'm dyslixic im not good at alot of thing's including reading, hand wrighting and spelling. On this post i am going to atemput to show you what it is like when some one rubs it in my favce. It fells like some one stabbing you in the leg. You didn't ask them to do it but thay did thay did it. At first it's jsut irtating then it kill's it's a stricing bane runigh through you. But you dont knew how to stop hoe are you sopost to take the nife out. And thay toel with you moveing this way that make it go in depper and depper. And it kills and all you do is make it stop but can do is clench your fist and count the menets down one bye one. Praying God will bless you and make this person go away, amd then thay do. But stilll fave the nife in your leg and you dont knew how to tke it out. And if your luckeyone of your friends will grabe the knife andpull it from your leg. Thay'll rap the wound and thne help you stand up . But a fell dasys latter you have a scar. It dosn't jsut go away it's still there. You dont forget it. insted you will alwas rember thos werds that day.

I'm not righting this for bittey I'm saying this is what can hapen tyo dyslexic people. People just make fun of me. Thats the choce. I just dont want htis sto happen to someone els.

Fading words

Simple skill. Lising the words come ion your erase, the sound go to your brain and your brain trantslat the sound to word's. Atlest that is how I understand it. But what happens when your Brian faels to do it's function. That's what it fells like. Here let me explain to day at youth group. We were trying to figure out what gift God has given us or gifts. And I looked at the bagf and lisend to our leader cosue we were in small groups. But the words were menan less like it was a foring langing it could get some of it but then i couldn't' I sould pitcher what she was saying but didn't process it. It's quiste confusing maybe I just was day dreaming or some thing who nose.

Sorry i havent writen in forever. But yeah i have been laze. Well on my last to spelling test's i got 100. But 1 i only have 12 words and 2 I get alot of help. Onbe of my friends said a nother kid in my classe is dyslexic and i think i knew who it is but i dont realy want to knew. Any way yeah. but i am alwas looking on the internet for more in fo on dyslexia. amd found this out. THant some one without dyslexia uses the left side of thgere brain for langig. But as for me i use the left and right wich is less ifective. One of my friends today though i should be a docter couse i knew about mediacl stuff. I just like to knew about that stuff. And i sipple replid im not smart inufe. I berly can make it through reguler school let alone medical that would be imbosiblebut any way i dont ned to think about that yet. So yeah i guess that is what is going on in my life sorry i havent posted in forever.

Help some one

I have like a challenge. But I will give it to you at the end of the post. As school starts I noticed some thing.

Ok let me ask you this how mean times have you see some one who needs help and disn't stop to help them. When have you looked at some one with atone of books and waked wright by them. Or some one spilled there stuff in the hallway and you just kept waeking. Why didn't you stop? I've done it before just kept waeking. But you knew when your weaking down the hall was don't you here you should have stopped. At school they want us to be world changers but how are we sops to chang the world when we cant even stop and help some one. If you want to make a difference stop help and see what happens some times it can chang the world if you help one persona have you see the commercial one guy helps some one then another and another and another till it comes full circle. Tomorrow you could waek by some one who needs help.


So here is my challenge when you see some one who needs help stop and help them just see what happens. That's my challenge.

Well today I tacked to my enlish teacher and she said that for the first test I am only going to do 12 words. I think it will be ok I don't really knew if it will help maybe less words will help I don't knew we will see what happens. But I still go down to Mrs. B. We will see how it goes I don't knew how grate it will be cause the words are wicked confusing this week. But atlest I don't have to take it tomorrow. (sorry guys.) Any way I prople should study more and I will tell you how it woks out.

Ok so today was my first day of school I guess it was ok most of my teachers are cool I don't really knew about my English teacher but my bible and history and math teacher and of course science teacher are cool. My Bible teacher makes it sound like we are going to have tons of fun this year. So yeah. But an way I never have liked English. But this year we have this thing where we can take three pretest at or house and if we get hundred we bring it in with our parents signature and don't have to take the test on Monday it sounds cool. O h and in enlish do you remover that story I tolled you a long time ago about that girl and I asked her what a word was. Well she sits infront of me in English. So not so good. Any way I will update about likes and dislike and hard the things at school so yeah.